You brought us up alone, being our mom and dad at the same time, not only being a single parent but the bread winner of the family. I admire and look up to you not only because you are my mom but because you are strong. Your heart has been broken for so long that I do not know how we can mend it; they do not know how to treasure you and give you what you deserve. I used to think that I was a mistake because you were only 23 and dad was 21 when I came into the picture; you told me that during that time you weren't ready to get married yet as well as dad but you had to (old tradition). You both have a life to live and dreams to chase, goals to achieve but right then and there you became parents. You and dad had to strive hard for me to have something to wear, eat, all the basic necessities that a parent should provide their offspring. You did not only gave me what I need but also showered me with so much love and affection. Things went to worse that had you carried all these responsibilities alone. The last time I saw you really smile was when we were still all together, and the latest was when you fell in love but he crumpled your heart like a piece of unimportant paper. I hate to see you cry, I hate to see that look in your eyes. Though you keep on trying and pretending to be happy, mom I can see what it is really is. You are braver and stronger than they think you are, and more than you think you are.
I may not know what's running through your head each time and what your heart is screaming out for. But mom, you have made Mama and Papa proud. You're a great ate to Tita Clifany, Tito Clifford, and Tito Bradford, and not only to them but to your cousins as well. You are the best mom for me and my brothers Wyeth and Walden. You are not perfect, but each time you have the chance to help you give it all to them and not thinking about yourself. You have been so selfless all these years, and maybe ever since. You reach out to complete strangers; and you always think about others as much, their needs, etc. Even though they have wronged you numerous times you never learn, you never hesitate to still respond to their wailing. Sometimes I wonder if those people who dislikes you know what you've been through and how long have you kept that unending well of tears, pain, and emotions in your heart for so long. If they know how good your heart is, if they know how much you love unconditionally. Some people think that we have everything but what they do not know is that as you always say, "GOD PROVIDES US EVERYTHING". We shop and stroll at the first-class' hang-outs just to expose us your children and to the ickiest places there is. You taught us to be human, that everyone is equal.
We love you so much and we'll continue making you proud as a token for all your sacrifices for us. We love, we owe you who we are now, who we'll become. You taught us how to love even our worst enemies, brought us closer to God, teaching us good values. And I alone, because you taught me how to forgive even though it's hard.You make us strong mom, even in the weakest point in our life you always serve as our strength. Always bear in mind that we love you, our gorgeous mom and that no one can ever replace you. To the greatest mom every daughter would wish to have. You never stop loving, forgiving, and understanding me, despite my flaws you still love me unconditionally. I may have said words that broke your heart, done things that made you cry, yet you still love me more. You are my life mom, I remembered what was written on the letter you last gave me which says "Even if the world would turn its back on you, mommy will ALWAYS be here to love you". I don't know what my life would be without you, I hate it every time you speak about death because it breaks me entirely. I love you so much mom even though I'm not the perfect daughter you wished and wanted me to be. I love you. I love you. I love you.
I wonder if you know how proud I am of you. Your theater plays, TV appearances, voice over commercials, you being a dubbing director, being an actress, and most of all being our mom. I'm very thankful that Papa God gave you to me, yet kind of sad because during my teenage years I was such a headstrong and was so busy growing up that I forgot to remember that you were getting older each year. Mom, I may have failed you a thousand times yet you still you love me for a million. You've always been there for me, I may have turned my back on you couple of times yet you still welcomed me back lovingly. When everything seems to be such a mess for me even myself think that I was such a jerk and all, you hugged me so tight and made me feel that all negative that I think about myself is wrong. You helped me face the consequences of every false move that I made and whenever I succeed on anything you're always the first one to be so proud of me, and how I love the smile on your face whenever I make you proud, and whenever I fail you always tell me that I can do better next time. When things get rough, you always remind me to pray just like how you taught me when was young to hold on tight to Papa God through best times and worse. I know how much hurt you've been through and these things made you strong, whenever you feel weak you know that I am here for you as well mom, I will never leave you. I love you so much more than words could speak, even much more than the heart could feel.
You did everything for me and brothers, you love us unconditionally. One day I will make you proud mommy, one day you'll be so proud of me, and you know that this time around I'm really making up for my mistakes. My strength and weakness is the four of you (you, dad, Wyeth, and Walden) but the most is you mom. Whenever I see you cry it just doesn't break my heart but it tears up a part of me. I hate seeing you cry mom, I really do. You're the best mom there is even though you often piss me off. Because I don't want to lose you mom, I don't know what I would do, how I would feel, how I will continue my life if I lost you because you're the best gift from Papa God eh and I love you so much mom, I will never get tired of saying it and letting you know how much I love you. I know that you love me unconditionally mom, you gave me hundred of chances to try and get back to track then here I am continually fixing myself and making up for my mistakes. Thank you mom for never giving up on me through the hardships and trials. You are my archenemy but at the same time my best friend, even in times that I wanted to cry my heart out and wanted to give up you're always there for me giving me strength and making me understand things and giving me advice. I know mom that you know when I'm hurting and when I'm on cloud 9; I'm holding back my tears. You're the only person that knows how strong and weak I am, you know when I feel like my world is falling apart, but what keeps me going? And that you always tell me that... "KEEP IN MIND: EVERY TIME YOU STUMBLE AND FALL, MOMMY WILL ALWAYS BE HERE REACHING OUT TO HELP YOU GET UP AND MOVE."
Behind every strong girl is a strong mother that believes in her and loves her unconditionally. You are my everything mommy. I love you.
_____________
Been receiving random calls from unknown phone numbers and people. And found out that my mom diverted her calls to me 'coz she's at the set right now taping for "Ipaglaban Mo!". Weird, annoying, yet too cute and sweet :)
I love you Mommy Wendy J. Villacorta :* kudos to my wonder mom.
She went home around 2:30 this morning had a nap for an hour or two then off to work again by 5:00 am. Wyeth and I prepared our baby brother Walden for school and as soon as he woke up he asked me, "Ate where's Mommy? Didn't she come home?". I smiled and said, "She did but she had to leave again and work more for us." and at the back of my mind I said, "You'll get used with it baby brother and time will come you will understand all the things mom has done for us and those that she'll do for us. That's how much mo loves the three of us."
My mom is the bread winner of her family and not only that she's also a single parent. She got pregnant at the young age of 22, got married, and had to face a new chapter of her life. From then on she worked so hard not only for herself but for everyone around her. She's the most selfless person I've ever known. She has never asked anything in return.Her dad, siblings, relatives, neighbors, and other people are relying on her but I never heard her complain. She's so superwoman and yes, she gets tired all the time but she never complains. She raised us well, so with whatever mistake we make don't ever get her into it because it was our choice not hers. We may argue often but that's just how it is. There were times when it was so crucial, those times when she wouldn't have any projects and offers for some time and I was the one who was worried sick and she would always tell me, "God will provide anak. Just pray." Just imagine raising three children by yourself, sending them to good schools, attending to their wants and needs. I admire her for turning down offers whether big or small just to be there with us on red-letter days such as Family Day in school, graduation, and other school functions and such. She was never busy when it comes to us. She has always been there for us even in times that we tend to forget that she's there.
Her heart has been broken terribly but she always stood up for love. Been hurt, burned, torn yet never lost hope in love. The greatest thing about my mom is the love she has in her. I wish someday, someone would love her unconditionally, would never hurt her, replace her, cheat on her, and would never leave her. Because she deserves it. She deserves to be loved the way she loves everyone. I love you mom, we love you and we are very proud and blessed to have you! :*
(JUNE 2015)
No comments:
Post a Comment