Much awaited college graduation

It's everyone's dream and every parents' dream for their offspring to graduate college on time. I graduated high school year 2010 and enrolled for college by June of the same year at University of Santo Tomas under the program of AB Political Science. I was never an A+ student since I started schooling, I was one of those who's between the lazy and normal type of student. It wasn't my dream school but it was my 2nd best choice. Everything was going fine, I woke up early and tried my  best to abide by the school rules and be a diligent one, wanted to follow as much as possible everything that is written on the Student's Handbook. I find it hard to  make new friends so  I felt invisible. Until I  found few one who turned out to be a bad influence, I can't really blame  them though because it was still my choice. Then I met a  group of friends wherein I became one of them later that year and that  was when I started drinking more often than I do. I gave in to temptation, I was weak that  I pulled myself down.  2nd year of college went by but then I had  to leave the school not because I was  failing but because I was losing track in my life. I  enrolled to another school which was Far Eastern University Main  Branch, transferred to AB International Studies. I was doing pretty much better  than I did not until I had a boyfriend that  I gave in again to temptation and this time everything went much worse. The school didn't  approve of my grades from UST to be credited and so I went to search for another school and ended up at Arellano University Legarda and  went  back to AB Political Science. I enrolled for summer class to  take some subjects in advance, I did very well since my  grades were  all A's. First semester came  and I honestly got very disappointed with how things work there, and the stress of having such a stressful boyfriend made it much worse (yes, I know it's redundant). Until time came when something so terrible happened to me, I tried to manage  picking myself up and somehow I did but maybe not. I became worse than before, very much worse, so much worse.  I want to graduate, I  am now left behind by my batch mates and more so, by another batch and another. I don't know how to start fixing myself, I am so fucked up. I miss studying diligently, I miss seeing good grades on my card  and not grades of 5 or dropped or INC. I better start now or  the whole world would be leaving me behind and I will be buried and miss a whole lot more opportunities in life.

(OCTOBER 2015)