Wong Fu Productions

I've been watching videos from Wong Fu Productions, but the first video was entitled "The Last", it really brings me to tears imagining a guy telling me those things and loving me that way. And so, I started to click on more videos from their channel and I found these short films hit me so much...

"AFTER US"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvxHPtEsmFc

THE STEPS OF MOVING ON:

1. Reminiscing and retracting

2. Release

3. Rebuilding

4. Renewed

REMINISCING AND RETRACTING

A year ago I found myself suffering from so much depression when everything between us was falling apart. I remember that last look, that last glance before we parted ways as I was on my way to the train station. A week after I sent him an e-mail on Yahoo just  like what we've talked about that we'd be somehow updating each other but received no reply from him, I fight the urge to text nor call him but I re-read our messages. I check on his new girl's Facebook account until I broke down when I saw that just after a week when we officially broke up he brought the girl to his house, to his room. The room that we re-painted and gave a new look, I wondered if he ever think about me with every stroke of that paint brush painted on his walls. Yes, he cheated on me. I did a horrible thing because the pain was too much to bear, I overdosed myself from 50pcs of aspirin. I hoped that he'd come to see me but never heard anything from him even when he knew that I was almost in coma. Even when I was getting better I still hope he'd come to see me, so we'd be able to say good bye, ask him things I'm dying to know like why did he cheated on me. I looked crap and lost, I purposely avoid things that would remind me of him, of us. I chose not to talk things over with anyone because it doesn't help at all, I just want him back. But after my stay in the hospital I slowly started to realize couple of things.

RELEASE

I started to eat more, started to gain weight and look better. Catching up with my friends and family, talked about him with a clear head. And to my surprise that I finally had that bit of courage to talk about him and what happened without shedding tears. Even tried to catch up with the whole world, school, classmates, strangers, places, everything.

REBUILDING

I socialized more often, gained few more people in my life. Tried new things, start to see life without him, did things alone that we used to do together such as stroll in the mall, watch a movie, coffee, dine, and a lot more. I flirt at times, go out on some dates but most of the time enjoy the company of my friends. Cleaned out my stuff until like in the video I unexpectedly found something that he owns and I fall back a few steps once in a while. But at least, I'm a whole lot better than how I used to be.

RENEWED

I miss having someone special and someone who treats me special but sometimes when I think of it everything comes back even the hurtful memories that makes me fear of giving it a try with love again. But  I came to think that I don't really need someone right now; there are number of cute guys I talk to but I'm not ready for anything right now. I don't mean to turn them down but all I want right now is just to be friends with them,  I don't want to be unfair jumping into things. I just want to focus on who I am as a person right now, who I want to be, who I can be. Love will come, maybe not soon enough but it will.

I haven't really figured out if I'm in the rebuilding or renewed step but what matters is that I'm getting better. In time, I'll be okay. In time, I'll have that gorgeous smile  back on my face. Someday. One day.

"STRANGERS, AGAIN"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvxHPtEsmFc

STAGES OF A RELATIONSHIP:

1. The meeting

2. The chase

3. The honeymoon

4. Comfortable

5. Tolerance

6. Downhill

7. Breaking up

THE MEETING

We met in the most awkward and unexpected way. I had a long day from photo shoot to ramp rehearsal and so much  hassle before I reached that mall where my acquaintances were at. My mobile's battery got drained and I had to look for a convenient store with charging station. Until my acquaintances went there and he was there, everything was history.

THE CHASE

We became friends and had couple of dates, introduced each other to families. Enjoyed our moments together, sweet nothings here and there.

THE HONEYMOON

After one year of courtship, Valentine's came as surprise when he asked me to his girl. It was such a perfect moment for both of us, being officially a couple.

COMFORTABLE

Most of the time we spend our time together thinking about where to go, what to eat, and what to do. Sometimes we'd end up bumming around together and doing silly stuffs, sharing laughs and all.

TOLERANCE

Arguments came up but we managed to patch things up, I just don't know how it went nearing the end of the relationship.

BREAKING UP

I found out that he has someone new (even when we were still together) and he kept it a secret for me for 3 months long. It was a mutual decision to end things, to end up the hurting and lying.

"And everything we shared would just become fragments and memories. From so long ago, I'll question if it really happened. And all that would  be left is a box of random stuff, from a faded memory in time when a stranger was the most important person in my life."

I still have all those random stuffs that reminds me of different memories and moments we shared and had. I kept it all in a white backpack and try not to open it and reminisce things over because I want myself to stop crying and I want the pain to stop hurting. I need to move on not in the way that he did but in a better way that I know would make me feel good about myself and everything again.

(NOVEMBER 2015)

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"THE LAST"

Who, What, When, Where, Why

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JvxHPtEsmFc

Mga kwento ni Roger sa Pagong

NOTE: WRITTEN IN TAGLISH (TAGALOG + ENGLISH)

I went past this through  YouTube while searching for some  "Hugot Lines". I didn't expect this would hurt me so much. While listening to  his voice clips I couldn't help but cry, it's like it's my  conscience talking to me or me talking to myself.

#3 is so much  feels: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K89aL0cxe6w&feature=iv&src_vid=I2KOJP8oXfU&annotation_id=annotation_2184460895

Sinanay mo ako  hanggang sa ikaw ang nagsawa. Sinanay at  pinaniwala mo ako sa maraming bagay, naging tapat ka sa mga sinabi mo sa akin and you treated me like a princess but bakit you threw me out like trash? Pero like sa video hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan kung bakit biglang isang araw biglaan ka na lang nagbago. Bakit bigla mo na lang ako iniwan, bakit bigla ka na lang napagod, bakit bigla mo na lang ako pinagpalit? Sana bago ka umalis tinuruan mo man lang ako kung paano masanay na wala ka. Before you came I was scared to give all the love I have, when you came I gave you all the love there is even the love that I never knew I have but when you  left you took everything away from me. I can still remember how it all started but still wondering how it ended. Sobrang layo mo sa idea guy ko at compared to those who were before you, hindi ko alam how  and why I fell for you but I took the risk. Remember the time na nagka-misunderstanding kami ni Mommy? I ran away from home at hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw ang una kong naisip na takbuhan. I took a cab with not much cash in my pocket, sobrang dilim na nun at binaba ako sa along Carriedo then I was scared kasi hindi ako sanay sa place na yun so I asked the "kagawad" na nagroronda that time, naka-motor siya. And when I got to your doorstep I was surprised to find you there, it was already midnight. I didn't even have my  phone with me because mom confiscated it, funny how I found you  there on your doorstep and just hang up the phone with my mom. Hindi ko alam why she called you up. I asked you bakit ka nasa labas holding your car keys and you told me na sabi sayo ni mommy  that I ran away at kaya ka nasa labas because you would go and find me kahit hindi mo alam kung saan ako hahanapin. Pero after a year or two I ran away not from home but from  you because we had an argument but this time you didn't go after me, I asked you why at sinabi mo sakin kasi hindi mo alam kung saan ako hahanapin. Ang sakit how things changed. Katulad ka lang din pala nilang lahat.

This #6 hit me so much: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I2KOJP8oXfU 

Paano nga ba makalimot sa isang taong minahal mo ng lubusan? 'Yung taong minahal mo ng higit pa sa lahat. I tried to do everything that would distract me from thinking and remembering things about how  we used to be. I hated how I look when we were together; Timehop sucks! It brings back so much memories, moments I had with  you that are now just part of my past. Ang haggard ko, ang payat ko sobra, pero alam mo kung ano? I don't know how to bring that smile back, that smile I had when we were together, that smile I used to have because I know that I have you with me. Totoong hindi mahirap makalimot, ang mahirap ay ang tumanggap sa mga bagay  na wala na. It's been a year and few months since we said good-bye pero hanggang  ngayon masakit pa rin. Minsan hindi ko pa rin maiwasang masaktan, malungkot, magalit. Naniwala ako sa mga bagay na hindi ko pinaniniwalaan nung dumating ka, binigyan mo ako  ng pag-asa maniwala. Pero alam ko darating din ung time na magiging okay ako ulit, hindi man kita makakalimutan pero darating ung panahon na mapapatawad din kita sa lahat ng ginawa mo sa akin. Mapapatawad din kita at magiging masaya ako ulit.

(NOVEMBER 2015)

Always never enough

Why is it that every time I fall, I fall so hard, so deeply in love. They may have pushed me a million times on the same edge and I never get tired of climbing back up and fall all over again. Getting back up was never easy, because with every fall I get bruises and scars everywhere and I try to stand firm like I'm not even damaged nor pained. How could it even be possible and that easy to give up on someone who wouldn't have given up on you. What went wrong? You know you have been terribly wronged but still you're the one asking to yourself what went wrong while he's now with someone new and thinking that everything he did was as just right as it is.  Was it that easy to just switch from one love to another just because you got tired you went looking for someone new. Was is that easy to replace the one you said you love more than love itself? If this is what loving more than love itself meant then I don't want to love no more. There's more pain than love that I ever felt yet I managed to stay with you while you went walking away. 

You don't know how hurtful it is to sit there and wait for hours for someone you love to see them for a minute, to check on them but when they saw you they'd just drag you around and send you home  because they're busy when it was obvious that they aren't. You don't know how hurtful it is to be with the person you love the most staring at their eyes hoping you'd see their soul but what you can now see is that he is somewhere far from where he's suppose to be, with you. You don't know how hurtful it is wanting to hold their hand so tight and never let go but whenever you try to his fingers won't even lock to yours, he's not losing grip because he has completely let you go he's just waiting for you to tell him that you're tired. You don't know how it feels to try to not to stay up late and think of you and never to sleep alone because I wanted to be so close to you knowing that you're sleeping soundly at night with that someone whom you say your goodnight to. You don't know how hurtful it is wanting to spend the rest of my life with you when you've already pictured yourself with her. You don't know how much it terribly kills whenever I tell you I love you and all I can ever hear was your breath saying that it's over between us. I don't love hurting myself, I'm not a masochist nor a martyr of love but I became one. You don't know how I try to sleep and wake up drowning with tears. You don't know how I felt when I know it was my birthday and yet I don't want to add up another year but to end the counting right there and then. Everything's different now from how you kiss me to the way you look at me, oh wait. You can't even look at me straight in the eyes no more not even a glimpse. I died a million times everyday seeing you living freely and happily while I was gasping for air to live. My love for you killed me and funny how the pain revived me and brought me back to life. And then again the question is, why was I always never enough for love?

/MS/
(JULY 2015)

The possibility of the impossible

How can you be so sure of someone who loves you more than you can ever imagine. Someone who has gone beyond the greater description of romantic love, but then fall apart every time, had your heart broken so many times, cry until there's no more tears to fall when he's not even the reason at all. It's them, the most important people in his life who just goes along with you because you're his present girlfriend but then they really love his ex-girlfriend whom they been together for 2 years. It has been 5 to 7 years since they broke up, he had another girlfriend after that ex and before me, they've been together for 2 years and a half. 

I could have understand why, but it seems like they're treating me like trash. He's changed ever since he met me, I myself too change when I met him. We love each other so much more than we both could think that we can love someone so much. But it's them, they're the obstacle, they're the challenge that we have to face and live with everyday. We've been together for almost 2 years now, but still they want that 5 to 7 years ago ex. Oh well, it's hard to explain and scribble down to the very beginning and explain how can I say that this relationship of ours differ from our past relationships. 

The last time I wrote and had a blog was way back 2008 I guess, and here I once started blogging again. I couldn't tell my parents how I feel, especially to my mom. Because every time I tell her about how his family is hurting and disrespecting me all the time even though I'm not crying I can see in my mom's eyes how she knows how much I feel so broken deep within. She knows how I loved my past boyfriends, and she knows very well how much I love this guy whom I'm with right now so much more, much more than love. I can't even tell this to my closest cousin as well because whenever I look into her eyes too, I can see how much she wants to hug me. No one in my family has ever saw me and heard of me like this, I had my heart broken before yes but this is completely different.

That feeling when you both love each other so much but his family approves of you, welcomes you, but doesn't really love you. Can you imagine being invited and attending to one of his family's big celebration and see his ex there with his cousins, and you feel like you don't exist at all. He was with me then and never left my side, but it hurts me every time, every day, I was a war freak but I stopped being that since I met him. My family knows that if it wasn't just because of him I could have done something wrong to them. I wanted to slap them in the face, pull their hair, shout and scream at them, punch them straight in the face, but I can't, I mustn't, it's so hard to keep your anger, hatred, and sorrow to yourself. I would always talk to God, "God, yes I thank You that You heard my prayers. (yes, I prayed for him and never even knew he exists. God has given me the signs I asked of and God has given me him, someone greater than what I prayed for) but why do we need to argue because of his family's fault. I don't want this to happen, we both love each other but why does it have to be this hard, it's so hard, we're torn in between. If this is hard for me, I know that it's harder for him. I don't know what to do, sometimes I think of leaving him though each time I try I just really can't. I don't know what I should do or how to feel, or even how to keep this, I can't bear it anymore, it too much pain so much hurtful. God, help me please. He's all I ever wanted, all I ever need, all I ever love. I gave up everything for him, my dream (though I was getting there into reaching it) I focused on my studies because he made me realize that I already need to graduate college. They're so disrespectful, they enjoy hurting me, making me look like a fool, and making me feel guilty. God why does it have to be this way? But then, if this is how it's suppose to be then maybe I'll try to live with this pain and endure it. I just can't really lose him."

But no matter how much I try to live with it, it really hurts. And people who keep on talking about how much it's okay, it's not, I wanted to tell them that "don't talk as if you know and can feel how I'm feeling right now". It once was a perfect love for us that became complicated because of them.

(JUNE 2013)
_________________________________________________________________________________Everyone has a heart for love even the heartless. Love is our strongest and weakest point, there is nothing in between. We live, fight, and die for love. I see nothing in the light and see everything in the dark. It is easy to fall in love but a billion fold hurtful to let go. For what was once a beautiful dream turned into a horrible nightmare. The blazing fire of love cooled down and burned into ashes. Wanting to revive, wanting to survive because you needed it to be alive. The tragic death of your heart gave birth to give you a new life. Why is it that every time you love truly and deeply you always end up hurting terribly? What does destiny have in hand for you? Were you meant to feel pain and hurt your whole life? Every love song doesn't remind you of only one person. It reminds you of those whom you loved and left you. You keep wondering why would love just always come passing by but won't stay.

You used to tell me I always deserve the best there is in life and so you gave it all to me, all the best you can offer. But where are you now? Is this the best that you're talking about? Do I deserve to be loved, hurt, shattered, betrayed, and left? Then why? You said you love me more than love itself, so is this what more than love itself is? Then why? Was is as simple as just a snap of a finger to leave it all behind like nothing happened, like I was no one, like love never came to exist, like you never even loved me. I was so strong being alone and you were weak being alone, I found my weakness in you and you found your strength from leaving me out in the blue. Love was there it was true, fantasy existed in reality but not until forever faded into never. It was a thirty-one (31)-month fairy tale. How it all began was just like how meeting someone unexpectedly depicted in Disney, Nicholas Sparks' novels, movies. The one that you've been dreaming of for years; I've been having this dream of someone wearing white in front of me, holding my hand while we're walking in a very crowded place. He was taller than me, but too short for my ideal guy. That slow-mo that he's the only one that you can see like there's only the two of you in the world. Time stops and everything and everyone else seems to disappear and it's just him who's too clear not to see. I'm very an out-going person so I meet random strangers almost everyday, continuously dreaming about that anonymous guy over and over again almost every night until one day I met someone unexpectedly in the most unexpected way. Time stood still, everything turned blurred but him. He was a complete stranger, the night after that I had the dream again but this time the guy who remained anonymous for years finally turned around and I saw his face. I woke up, wondering why. Among everyone else, I had several boyfriends, MU's, and went out on dates but never have I seen their faces in my dream especially this mysterious dream, just him. It was so crazy how it all started and now it's just a fantasy into reality that ended up in tragedy.

One day I won't need to wear a mask, I won't need to fake a smile, I will laugh with laughter and no longer laugh to hide the pain. I still keep on asking WHY? Why does it have to be this way? Why do we have to end so tragically? Why did you cheat on me? Why did you leave me? Why have you done this to me? Do I deserve this kind of pain? Do I deserve this? I wonder if I ever cross your mind even for a split second in a day. Did you threw out all those memories that were kept in your drawer? What comes to your mind when you see our collections? What about when you look at paint on the walls of your room? Every stroke, every brush, the colors itself. I believed in something that was nonexistent, I had faith in love because of you. I believed in you. I believed in us and I held on to it while you undoubtedly let go.

I almost died loving someone who lived like I never existed. You showered me with so much love and drowned me with so much pain. You were the main reason why  I became fearless in loving, why I took the risk of falling in love. Maybe we were meant to be unmeant after all. Why does it feel like I'm not feeling anything? Don't I really feel anything or I'm just choosing not to care because I already know where this leads. I should know where this would lead. Am I really over him? Why does it feel like somehow I still care? Well, maybe because at one point in time he was my everything that when it ended I was left with nothing. I can barely remember his voice, the way he laughs, his smile, his everyday routine, how he dresses up to the way he dries his feet with a different towel. The way he sleeps and the way he looks. It seems to me like he only existed in my dream. It was like I was asleep for 3 years and when I woke up he's just one great and terrible dream at the same time. It doesn't haunt me no more but it still pains me. Why is it so?

/MS/
(MAY 2015)

He could have been the one

I have never loved someone more than I love myself, my religion, my family, and my life. I never even believed that it could be possible to love someone so much that you'd be willing to risk it all for them. He could have been the one I'd be sleeping and waking up each day with, he could have been the one that I'd go to places I've never been, the one that I'd be going on adventures with, enjoying all the scrumptious foods in various places with. The one that could have been my buddy in everything, movies, cuddles, arcades, karaokes, dance floors. He could have been the one I'm enjoying watching all the silly videos we made, the one that could have been by my side reminiscing moments from our photos together, talking about anything under the sun. Star gazing, taking the dogs out for a walk, biking, strolling, picnics, travel, road trips, and sweet nothings.

He could have been the one I'm sharing every moment with, celebrating every red-letter-day with. Anything, everything could have turned into something but it all ended with nothing. He was my knight in shining armor, my prince charming, my Romeo, my happily ever after, my happiness and sorrow, my strength and weakness, my possible and impossible. He was everything I ever dreamed of; he was my fantasy in reality. He could have been the one I'd lovingly spend the remaining days of my life with, the one that I'd love to see when I get home from work, the one who'd be called "Daddy" by my children, the one I'd be with through anything.

I gave him all the love I never knew existed, I was at my worst and he loved me at his best as I did loved him that much too. I guess he never even really loved me more than love itself. He could have been the one that I would love 'til we're eighty, he could have been the one that I would love 'til my last breath. But to him I'm a headache thus he gave me heartache that would take much time to heal, he was my forever but to him I was his whatever, he was my everything but to him I was nothing. He's not just someone because he could have been the one.

/MS/
(MARCH 2015)

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http://definitelyfilipino.com/blog/2015/04/15/he-could-have-been-the-one/

Fallacious Notation

Love doesn't always happen at first sight, sometimes it's by falling-- developing feelings unexpectedly, and sometimes we may think it's by accident. Having that someone as a part of your life is a choice; being close friends is a choice. At first things were so right, sharing laughter, silly stories, secrets, pain, and hurt. But as days went by, why does it all of a sudden changed into something else? Why? Where was the guy whom I knew? The guy whom I enjoyed being with? Why did you go away?

Things don't always fall into the right place, and that was what happened. Please don't treat me this way because I know I'll never have a chance with you. There could never be an us. A dream began a dream that is only meant for dreaming. A love that is only meant for wishing.

Everything is an illusion, I was deceived by your sweetness, and maybe I assumed it was something else. I was captured by your actions, and I fell into your arms. The rain is pouring. I feel cold, could you still be here for me like the old days when you lock me into your arms, and feel the warmth of your sweet embrace? I begin to shiver, shiver not from feeling cold but from the coldness of us. It wasn't supposed to be like this, this isn't right. I want to stop myself from falling further more so please stop treating me so special. I don't need it but I want it, I want you, I wanted you. 

/KA/
(SEPTEMBER 2010)

Epistle II

I used to believe in Happy Endings, princes, knight in shining armor, castles, unicorns, Never land, happy couples. But when my parents got separated, those Fairy tale stories were instantly buried in my memory. I felt like my life became miserable then as I thought it could ever be, love became a fairy tale and then I never believed that it could come true. That everything just happens in one's head, writings, movies, and most of all an illusion. One time love became a game for me, wherein the one who falls in love is the loser, and the game player always wins. The image of one happy family to me exists only in old photographs. The ideal family was what my classmates have. Guess their break up and parting ways buried me 99.9%, I cling on to God.

And so here I am, striving yet still falling on the ground and breaking at times. There even came a time wherein I stopped fooling more and quite loved, I held on to love. Love then became my comfort zone, and this amazon retreated from her battle. Spilling her heart out, pouring love out, but ended in the pain of it. I try to make myself better than who I was, but still mess up once in a while. Once or twice they were proud of me but it's always a one-day grin or success. And now, here comes along a story I only knew existed in a great writer's hand, a story that only a great scriptwriter could write, a song that only a great composer could compose, a poem that only a great poet could be proud of. A majestic topic a debater would fight for to win, a case a great lawyer would surely argue for and could not let this lose, and lastly for a brave warrior, it is a great reason to battle for.

(MAY 2012)

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http://definitelyfilipino.com/blog/2015/04/10/epistle-ii/

That Thing Called Tadhana

For the first time in forever wink emoticon

In my 21 years 5 months and 6 days of existence, I've never watched a movie alone. Now it's time to try defying the dependence of having a movie buddy. I know how to handle myself, but when someone told me and proved me for awhile that he has my back I believed him, trusted in him (though I have trust issues) only that it turned out that he was the man I should have never trusted with my heart at all.

I admire Anthony Lagdameo's (JM De Guzman) character, walking straight to a complete stranger with a genuine concern for the girl with a broken heart, the girl who is lost, feeling alone, so hurt and pained because of some guy who used love to hurt her so bad that. The guy whom she's willing to give up everything for, imagined life with him, has goals and a bucket list of everything made with love, a forever that she believed in, and just with seven words: "HINDI NA KITA MAHAL, MAKAKA-ALIS KA NA." (I don't love you anymore, you may leave now.) Goes to show that it's not about how long you've been together but the love, the faithfulness, and the loyalty that holds it closer and with God in the midst of it. How can someone be so heartless to just leave the person who'd give him the whole world, would swallow her pride, give everything she has, entrust him all the love she has been saving for since she was a child for her prince. You loved her less than she deserves, or maybe lesser than less. NO ONE DESERVES TO BE CHEATED ON AND JUST BE LEFT WITH AN INVALID REASON. How can a person continue to live life with someone new and with just a snap of a finger forget everything they've been through, how can you continue living life with someone new and leave her in the blue. Why did you choose to betray her instead of just leave her, why did you leave her?

Then someone comes along at that point wherein you just want to burst out and drown yourself in the sea of sorrow and in the blood river 'til tomorrow. He offers you a helping hand; he carries you with him though you're heavier than the usual burden because of the entire burden you've been carrying with. He looks at you like you're perfect though you're crying your heart out, he listens to you and when he says something, he's stating a fact (though it may sound as if he's being harsh with words)...

"Sabihin naman niya kung bakit, anong ginawa ko--" -Mace 
(I want him to tell me why, what have I done--)

"Bakit, kapag sinabi ba niya kung bakit, may magbabago? 

Ang bottomline, hindi ka na niya mahal." -Anthony

(If he told you, would it change anything? The bottomline is that he doesn't love you anymore.)

When one walks away, someone better is heading your way. Gather up those broken pieces, you are a gorgeous diamond and you deserve the best love there is. Someone like you who loves so deep will have something great in return. That love that you've been waiting for maybe a clandestine to you right now, but when the right time comes it will be revealed not until you are truly healed. Don't ever be bitter because someone hurt you more than anything else, because remember that it is not love nor forever that hurt you but someone who abused and used love and forever to hurt you.

There is often less danger in the things we fear than in the things we desire.

I recommend everyone to watch the movie "That Thing Called Tadhana". It'll be so much fun even if you watch it alone (as I did). Laugh, cry, and fall in love. I can relate so much with Angelica's character Mace, it struck my heart when I was watching it. I remembered how hurtful it was, how I felt alone though everyone was around me, and most of all how someone like JM's character Anthony unexpectedly came into the picture at that moment when you've almost buried yourself alive from the sorrow of the love that you believed and from the man that you think was the one. I was the heart pierced right through him and he was the arrow that was enjoying his life 'til I came and 'til things were ALMOST there but maybe, time says it all. That someone helped us get back up but somehow something keeps us waiting, but as the saying goes "True love waits". Wherever you are now, I'll never get tired of thanking you because you carried me with you until I can smile and live again. At first I was feeling kind of lonely but the sometimes you find serenity and tranquility within you; 'til we meet again. Never cease believing in love and in forever.

"THERE ARE ALL KINDS OF LOVE IN THIS WORLD BUT NEVER THE SAME LOVE TWICE."- F. Scott Fitzgerald

(FEBRUARY 2015)

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http://definitelyfilipino.com/blog/2015/04/03/that-thing-called-tadhana-2/

"ONCE THERE WAS A FOREVER"

NOTE: WRITTEN IN TAGLISH (TAGALOG + ENGLISH)

I got this story from Wattpad (@babe0893), I don’t usually enjoy reading romantic stories and or love stories on Wattpad (honestly speaking). I only read Horror Stories there, but this story caught my attention. It was much alike with what happened to me, and not to mention that it felt like I was reading what happened to me. Plus the writer’s username: babe (which I fondly use with all my social networking accounts), 08 (August, my birth month) and 93 (my birth year). It felt like it was me who wrote it, like someone had my mind and scribbled down everything. The story has five chapters; oh well, here it goes…

Luna was the typical type of a young and free teen age girl with hopes and dreams, though she's a a player and bit bitchy and so flirty, she believes that love is real and she believes in all those idealistic things about love that novels and movies depicts.









Until one day she meets Elvis, who is also a player himself. They met unexpectedly at a very unexpected moment, place and time and everything else was history.




Fantasy then happened in reality. No they're not dreaming, everything was so real and magical, so heavenly and full of love until there came to a point wherein love was just too much and pain became so unbearable.




They both changed for each other; changed for the better. From being both a player to being both a faithful lover willing to risk it all for love's sake.
Will they be able to get this through together or they were only meant for a moment and that it would end that there was just once a forever.

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LEGEND:

*Luna

—Narrator

CHAPTER 1: UNEXPECTEDLY

*My name is Luna and I just graduated from high school two years ago, so obviously I am now in college. I love my course but I just don’t really ‘feel’ my classmates. Well anyway I have friends from different schools naman so I go out with them every now and then. I do part-time modeling and ramping ‘coz right now during this second semester my parents decided to let me stop studying for a while ‘coz I’ve been so much pasaway na raw.

Photoshoots here and there, party ‘til you drop almost everyday. I love loving my single life; I do have “boyfriendS” (yes, it’s with an ‘S’) often pero I don’t take them seriously ‘coz it’s so obvious na hindi naman sila serious so why bother right? And besides I’m too young to be so serious and to let someone be my world.

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Then one super busy day in Luna’s life… Morning, a day with her family, afternoon photoshoot then evening rehearsal for tomorrow’s ramp. Suddenly her acquaintance texted her to go where they are ‘coz they want her to be there (another party night for her). She was with her two friends that were with her since afternoon. It then now started when she together with her friend Rue would take the train going there, it was already 8pm or 9pm and unfortunately the train was so jam packed that it irritated her. Rye decided not to come with Luna, and Luna who doesn’t care about the train fare went down the station and decided to take the jeepney or can instead but there were hardly jeepneys or cabs and so she took the bus.

Her acquaintance Meg kept on texting her and asking we where she is because they’re already done drinking and they’re all heading home. Unfortunately her battery got drained, and as soon as she got off from the bus where it brought her down to a certain mall she tried to look for an outlet to plug in her mobile phone an charge the drained battery.

*Ang hassle naman ng lakad na ito! Pagod ka na nga tapos ganito pa. Grabe naghanap talaga ako ng ma-cchargan, Urgh! Kainis! Kinapalan ko na face ko na kahit mga bantay sa kiosk tinanungan ko na if may charger sila or outlet ‘coz I really need to charge my mobile kasi if not patay na how will I be able to find them. Close na ang mall ‘coz it’s almost 11:30pm na. So I went to ask the guard at the foot of the overpass, I was asking where the store with the charging station is but it was too far so I ended up at a nearer convenient store.

Finally! Nakapag-charge na ng phone. Hurrah! Kirk came to where I am and he was with three new faces, we were all introduced to each other. Two girls and one guy; so funny, weird, and awkward all at one that I had a slow mo moment with this guy who’s a complete stranger. Totoo pala ung mga nasa movies na slow mo na parang walang ibang tao sa paligid kundi kayong dalawa lang, wala kang ibang makikita kundi siya lang. Sumabay na raw ako sa kanilang tatlo sabi ni Kirk kasi pa-Manila sila and so I did.

May car daw kasi itong Elvis guy. So syempre dahil late ako dumating at nakakahiya sa harap na ako sumakay para rin naman hindi siya mag mukhang driver namin. Along the way nung nasa Manila area na kami, tinatamad din itong sina Rose Ann and Jacque umuwi and since sila lang naka-inom at sobrang gusto kong uminom nag-aya ako uminom in short. Payag naman sila agad, so dinala kami ni Elvis sa isang inuman yet chill place malapit sa bahay ko. Okay naman the whole time, magkatapat kami ni Elvis sa table, katabi ko si Rose Ann at katabi niya si Jacque. Ang awkward kung paano ako titigan nitong Elvis na ito.

Mahina pala uminom sina Rose Ann and Jacque so inubos namin ni Elvis ang remaining drinks dahil sayang naman then we all ha breakfast at a fast food, it was already 4am when we decided to go home. Oh I almost forgot I had to go to the office pa pala to get my photos. Saglit lang ng tulog ko; I sent everyone in my contact a message na naghahanap ako ng magpapahiram sa akin ng flash disk (USB) and most of them wala “daw”.

SMS

Elvis: Meron ako flash disk, you can borrow it but how will I be able to lend it to you?

Me: Ahh kita na lang tayo somewhere.

Elvis: Sige. Puntahan na lang kita sa inyo para ‘di ka ma-hassle.

Me: Okay. See you!

He came naman talaga and to my surprise pag-abot niya nung flash disk bagong bili dahil naka-seal pa!

CONVO (CONVERSATION)

Me: Hala! Sabi ko extra eh kasi kukunin ko lang naman yung files then ibabalik ko rin agad after.

Elvis: Okay lang ‘yan (smirks). Oh how are you going to get there nga pala?

Me: I’m going to take the train.

Elvis: Tara hatid na kita sa train station. Sorry ha I can’t bring you there, actually kasi may class pa ako ang sabi ko lang sa prof mag-cr Lang ako.

Me: Oh gosh! Grabe sorry and super thank you ah. Kahiya grabe. Sorry talaga.

(In my head) Urgh! Na inis talaga ako nakakahiya sobra!!!

Elvis: Here’s the train station na

Me: Hey, sobrang thank you ah. I appreciate it so much

Elvis: Don’t mention it

As I was going up the stairs heading to the train station itself, hindi niya inaandar pa ung car talagang he waited na mawala ako sa paningin niya. Kilig overload na ito! He’s not my type though kasi naman he’s too short for a guy. He’s not handsome but he’s cute, but he’s not tall talaga eh.

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When Luna got home from the office and got her files with her, she just went home to get ready because later she has a ramp. Another tiring and busy day for her as usual. When she got there her co-models were already rehearsing, and she joined them. Hours after they were all getting ready for the big night.

SMS

Elvis: Hi Luna, good luck sa ramp mo ^_^

*Waaa! Naalala niya okay so kilig. Pero kinakabahan talaga na ako ang daming tao, I might trip and slip kahiya!

SMS

Me: Thank you Elvis pero grabe talaga I am so nervous.

Elvis: Don’t be. Kaya mo ‘yan!

Me: How can you say so? Ang pauso mo naman.

Elvis: Ganito na lang, close your eyes.

Me: Why muna?

Elvis: Close your eyes first then I will tell you why after you do it.

Me: I did closed my eyes na. Why ba?

Elvis: When you close your eyes just think that I am there with you.

Okay. Ramp na, I am getting more nervous than ever… Yes!!! Nagawa ko whoa!

SMS

Me: Elvis! Done na set ko yey!

Elvis: Great! Hey may tarpaulin pala kayo sa labas niyang venue nuh?

Me: How did you know?

Elvis: I just passed-by kasi to check if the surroundings is okay to know if you’d be safe.

Aba! Aba! Bolerong natural ito ahh. After my ramp I went with my other friends Lala and Rein, Elvis waited for me to text him that I am home na. Eh I got home at 5am the next day na. What’s with him ba that he often makes me feel special? Sobrang bilis naman parang speed of light. Pero why am I feeling so kilig nga ba?

CHAPTER 2: SUDDENLY

*A week after Elvis invited me, Rose Ann and Jacque to have dinner and watch a movie at his house. He asked us to bring movies that we want to watch so I brought my favorite, a great Indian movie entitled: The Three Idiots.

He cooked sinigang for dinner and in fairness masarap siya magluto. Nakakahiya lang kasi ka-babae kong tao pero hindi ako marunong magluto.

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Weeks had passed, it has been a month or two now and again Elvis invited the three girls to their rest house at Cavite area. Unfortunately Jacque wasn’t able to join them. Rose Ann, Luna, and Elvis spent the night there drinking while watching various genres of movies on his laptop. Rose Ann got drunk and threw up, Luna and Elvis had a moment to talk about random stuffs. It was like the time stood still and when they got back to Manila everything was history.

Elvis made a video for Luna wherein from the exact convenient store at the exact spot where he saw her, he was holding a piece of paper that says “Elvis loves Luna”. The convenient store, the bar where they went and the fast food, the video was composed if 50 random people holding that piece of paper: “Elvis loves Luna”. Luna was so surprised because andun din ung mga ka-organization niya and we mentors as well, even some of Elvis’ family and Rose Ann and Jacque too. A tear dropped from Luna’s eyes as well as Elvis’ too. How can something so extraordinary happen just as fast as a month.

One evening…

SMS

Elvis: Nasa bahay ka?

Luna: Yes. Why?

(20mins had passed no reply yet)

(Luna’s phone rings)

Luna: Hello?

Elvis: Baba ka saglit

Luna: Ha? Why? Sobrang lakas kaya ng ulan.

(Luna goes down)

Si Elvis nasa labas ng house niya with no umbrella, sobrang basa sa ulan.

CONVO

Luna: Baliw ka ba?!?

Elvis: (hands over a box of brownies) Gusto ko Lang naman ibigay sayo ito eh, kasi alam ko favorite mo ito.

Luna: Eh sino ba nag sabi sayo naman na magpa basa ka sa ulan?

Elvis: Hindi naman ako dapat magpapabasa sa ulan. Inabutan Lang ako, eh wala akong umbrella and I can’t wait to see you so here I am

A different day…

Elvis fetched Luna at her house and when Luna was inside the car na she was surprised that Elvis gave her a Conti’s chocolate cake (one of her favorites) with a card that says… “I just simply want to thank you for coming into my life.”

Another different day…

Elvis went to see Luna

CONVO

Elvis: Hey ang kulang ko na lang sa requirements to go to Germany is for me to pass my interview

Luna: Oh really? Good luck! kaya mo ‘yan, ikaw pa!

Elvis: Mamimiss mo ba ako?

Luna: Ano ba namang klaseng tanong iyan? Syempre naman

(Luna suddenly hugged Elvis so tight and then bursted out in tears)

Luna: Pwede ba na dito ka na lang sa akin? Paano tayo? Paano ako? Stay with me please. Dito ka na lang ‘wag ka na umalis, ‘wag mo ako iwan

Elvis: (teary-eyed, hugged Luna even tighter)

*Summer is almost over, malapit na ang birthday ni Elvis. What can I do to make him happy kaya? Hmmm… I know, I will invite his closest friends and his bestfriend over to come and join us for dinner.

My list for Elvis’ birthday:

•Cake

•Venue

•His closest friends and his bestfriend

•Video

•Balloons

•Banner

•Gifts

•Photographer and videographer

Got everything done and prepared na for his birthday. I’ve never even done this before for anyone not even for my family, I don’t understand why is he this important to me. I mean like I prepared and planned everything alone that’s just WOW! I hope it would make him happy and feel special.

ELVIS’ BIRTHDAY

SMS

Me: Punta ka na here.

Elvis: Okay. I’d be there in a bit.

*So nervous, everything is already set and all of his friends are here na.

SMS

Elvis: I’m here na at the door

Me: Okay.

(Goes to fetch Elvis at the door)

CONVO

Elvis: Why do you look so nervous? Ano meron?

Me: I’m going to treat you dinner ‘coz it’s your birthday.

(Reaches the function room)

GUESTS: “Happy Birthday Elvis!!!”

(Slide show on the white screen started to play)

(Crew of the restaurant started to serenade Elvis)

*Elvis’ face was so priceless, ang teary-eyed niya. Accomplished! Pero bakit teary-eyed din ako?

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The party ended just right and just in time. Magnifico! Elvis and Luna brought home Jacque (Rose Ann wasn’t able to attend ‘coz she has colds). As soon as Jacque got off from the car Elvis hugged Luna so tight and cried, he thanked her and they both cried. Is this love? Is love doing mushy and silly things for the other? Things that you never thought you’d do to anyone in your whole life. You were once too prideful that you never imagined of doing it but it became unexpectedly possible.

Elvis told Luna the news about his application for Germany was denied because he intentionally failed his interview, his family not knowing about it wanted him to re-apply but he refused to do so. He stayed with Luna, though it was a big opportunity waiting for him there. It’s a childish decision, impractical but he did it for this foolish thing called love.

Everything was smooth sailing and after two months it’s now Luna’s birth month and only few days to go before her birthday. Exact midnight of Luna’s birthday she was already sleeping and the lights were already off when there was a tiny light on top of her head that woke her up, to her surprise it was Elvis holding a birthday cake for her and singing ‘Happy Birthday’. Not only that but he also gifts for her, a book (‘coz she’s a bibliophile), an earphone (‘coz she’s a music lover), and a purple bag that she wanted. Elvis stayed for a couple of minutes and left.

The morning came and she and Elvis just had lunch out and strolled around but what she doesn’t know is that the next day would be a blast.

Luna was wondering why everyone at home left, seemed like everyone was so busy and has to go somewhere all at once. She gave it a benefit of the doubt ‘coz at times it does happen.

SMS

Elvis: Luna get ready, I’m going to pick you up in a while.

Luna: Why? Where are we going?

Elvis: I’m going to bring you somewhere.

Elvis fetched Luna at her house and headed to a fast food. Luna was curious because they didn’t went straight to the counter, Elvis was holding her hand as they reach the stairs going up. And to Luna’s surprise everyone was there and yes, there was a birthday party for her. She looked around and her whole family, friends from various groups, godparents, and closest friends even relatives were there. She hugged Elvis and they both bursted out in tears. He threw out a kiddie party for Luna’s last year of being a teenager. Everyone enjoyed, it was so priceless.

It was time for her to make a wish and blow her birthday cake and her family gave her a heart touching message. Elvis’ turn to give a birthday message, he wasn’t ashamed nor hesitant to tell in front of everyone that Luna deserves all the best there is and that he loves her more than love itself.

*I never thought na dadating pa ‘yung guy na hindi mahihiya na sabihin at ipaalam sa harap ng lahat ng taong importante sa akin na mahal niya ako. I was hoping that someone would do that last year nung debut ko. It’s a year late though, but still fairy tale come true. I am very and incredibly blessed to have Elvis.

—Hours turned into days, days into weeks, weeks into months. Hello ‘BER’ month! Luna and Elvis kept on going somewhere they’ve never been and doing activities they’ve never done. Picnics, extreme sports etc.

Their first plane ride together was when Luna an her family were off for a vacation, Elvis came with them. They had so much fun for four days and three nights. Activities here and there, that white beach and warm seawater, awesome view was so relaxing. Banana boat, Parasailing, ATV, 3D Art Museum, Zorb Ball, and strolling along the beach.

Months came by so quickly and it was Elvis’ uncle’s wedding day. Luna was invited, she brought her cousin with her. It was well and at the reception Elvis didn’t joined her first cousins at the table instead he joined Luna and we cousins then Elvis’ second degree cousins went to join them at the table. Magical feeling because Elvis was so proud of her and introduced her to everyone at the party. After the program Luna and Elvis went goofing around, took a sit on the bride and groom’s seat like they’re the next ones who’s going to get married.

CHAPTER 3: MAGICALLY

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Hello NEW YEAR! Luna and Elvis aren’t in an official relationship yet and it pisses Luna off so much.

*Kung pwede lang na ako na lang ang magtanong eh. Nakaka-inis kasi! We both love each other naman, our families are okay, we’re okay, everything’s fine. What else is missing pa ba?

—

Until Valentine’s Day came. The couple had a heart-shaped personalized chocolate for their loved ones that they gave to them a day before Valentine’s. And the day before itself Luna had already prepared a surprise for Elvis, and so she went to Elvis’ house while he was still sleeping. She had petals scattered on Elvis’ bed where he was sleeping soundly, she filled the white board in his room with cut-outs of heart post-its with different languages of ‘I love you’, and an arrow leading to the formal dining room where she placed her surprised. and there in the dining room were petals arranged in a heart shape, a heart-shaped cartolina with Elvis’ full name written on it with an ‘I love you’. As soon as everything was already set, she went back to Elvis’ room to wake him up. She turned on a song entitled “Perfect Moment” then placed their dog on Elvis’ face so he would wake up. When he woke up he saw every surprise of Luna for her, when he reached the dining room she found Luna there and he hugged her so tight crying and saying “I love you more than love itself”.

Afternoon of the same day, Elvis fetched Luna at school with a bouquet of three beautifully blossomed red roses with lovely white tulips. The very best bouquet Luna has ever accepted to receive. And they had dinner at a buffet restaurant, as soon as they were almost done with their plates Elvis pulled out a tin can and gave it to Luna. She was so surprised when she open it because it was the watch that she’s been longing for, the watch that she’s even dreaming to have whenever she sees in on buses. Elvis pulled out a letter inside the tin can and let Luna read it.

The last line says… “Today I am your Valentine but can I ask you one thing? Could I also be your boyfriend not only for today but until I come to ask your hand in matrimony. You and me together, and forever with God binding us. Happy Valentine’s Day and happy first day of our forever.”

*Sobrang totoo ba talaga ito? Is this really happening? Since I was a kid it may sound funny and crazy but I have been praying to God na yung taong magtatanong sa akin to be his girl on mismong Valentine’s Day ay yun ang sign na binigay siya sa akin ni God. I looked at him after reading the letter and I gave him my ‘yes’ with teary-eyed and he hugged me while sniffing ‘coz he was teary-eyed too. And so it is official we are now in a relationship!

Feels so good, so perfect, unexpected, magical. Never knew that a fantasy could become reality and that a dream can come true in real life. We were more in love with each other more than ever. More outdoor activities and gastronomic adventures here and there until my paranoia invaded my whole system.

I was stalking Facebook accounts and I found a photo of him and his family with his ex, it was dated 2010. I don’t know why I feel so jealous ‘coz they were so close to her and I kept on scrolling only to find out that the same girl was present during his uncle’s wedding and no one even told me about who she is, I even asked who she was during the wedding ‘coz his whole family seemed to like her very much. From then on I became so possessive, overprotective, paranoid and all. You know why? Kasi I feel so indifferent kahit tanggap nila ako. Iba naman kasi ang tanggap sa gusto, it’s shallow but you’ll never understand me until you feel how I do. Then we often argue often na and most of the time about stupid things.

Sobra akong naging selosa na hindi ko naisip na dapat matuwa ako dahil proud siya sa akin, pero hindi ko alam eh. Bakit ganun, bakit ganito. Napadalas yung pag sundo and pag hatid ko sa kanya sa work and school, napabayaan ko na sarili ko at studies ko sa sobrang takot na mawala at maagaw siya sa akin. Hindi ko naisip na hindi na nakakatuwa ang ginagawa ko, na nakakasakal na ako, sumo sobra na. Hindi na out of love lahat ng ginagawa ko, slight obsession and mostly fear of losing him na. But still he never gave me up. Ako at ang pangit kong attitude.

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Elvis never gave up on Luna. He showed her more na siya lang talaga ang mahal niya, na wala nang iba pa kundi siya. Kahit na sobrang selosa at possessive na ni Luna. Surprises here and there that are from the heart to secure and assure her of his love for her. It even came to a point wherein nainis na ang family ni Elvis kay Luna because of her attitude but Elvis stood up for her, that made them more angry with Luna because Elvis had never answered back at them since he was young. They kept on wondering what’s with this Luna that had Elvis so much in love with her.

Luna lost so much weight that from sexy and hot she became so skinny that she will pass as a model of skeletal system inside a science room. Elvis put so much effort to make her better and bring back the happiness in her. But sobrang pasaway ni Luna, everyday she’s becoming worse than yesterday. Elvis still kept on loving her despite it all.

*Birthday na ulit ni Elvis. I need to make this better and more memorable than last year. Photobooth, magician, lighting balloons, tarpaulin, 100 birthday greetings, personalized cake and cupcakes, his family and my family, gifts, photographer and videographer, birthday letters for him from his family and my family and some of his friends. Thank God maayos ulit ang lahat. Success!

—

Elvis’ efforts were much better than before. He surprisingly gave Luna red roses for nothing, there weren’t any occasions it’s just him showing how much he loves her.

Papasok na si Luna ng school then paglabas niya ng front door nila Elvis was there.

CONVO

Elvis: Tara hatid na kita sa school

Luna: Wala ka pa tulog from work ahh

Elvis: Okay lang. Just let me love you more each day

Christmas is drawing near. This sweet couple had been through a lot, pain, love, sacrifices, etc. Start of Simbang Gabi is just days away. Another Christmas together, they always save up to buy gifts for both of their families. Not to brag but to show affection and appreciation.

New year, new beginning, new phase of life. Luna is still not okay, she hasn’t been okay for quite a while now but she doesn’t show it to anyone not even to Elvis. She was trapped in the fear of losing him that she forgot how to love him a little less so she can love herself a little more.

Hello February, the Love Month. Elvis surprised Luna by going to her house in the middle of the night. Elvis sent Luna an SMS that he’s at her doorstep so when she opened the door Elvis sang a phrase of a song…

Elvis: (singing) “Puno ang langit ng bituin at kay lamig pa ng hangin, sayong tingin ako’y nababaliw galiw. At sa awitin kong ito, sana’y maibigan mo. Ibubuhos ko ang buong puso ko, sa isang munting harana para sayo.”

They were both teary-eyed as usual and Luna hugged her so tight. Elvis gave Luna three big red heart balloons, a box of her favorite Ferrero Rocher, a red rose and not just that he pulled out something from his pocket and it’s what Luna was wanting to have but he’s not telling it to him, it’s a pandora’s bracelet. Elvis also gave Luna’s mom a red rose and a cake for Valentines. The couple of course also gave Elvis’ grandma and mom a Valentine gift. love was definitely in the air.

CHAPTER 4: UNTITLED

Summer is fast approaching. They already had plans for summer, they both enrolled in summer class so that Elvis can finish his second course right away since he is already done with his one-year contract at a government hospital. He would have more sleep now that he’s only studying because he was always so jaded last year when he was studying and working at the same time but despite that he still has time for Luna.

Elvis’ asked for the approval of Luna’s parents if she can come with him and his family for a 5-day vacation at Hong Kong and Macau. Entrusting their daughter to him and they can see how much he loves their daughter, they allowed her to go with him.

HONG KONG AND MACAU TRIP

Hello Hong Kong! This is Luna’s first out of the country trip and she’s been wanting to see double-deck buses, culture and art, etc. That smile on her face was so priceless. She enjoyed every moment with Elvis.

HK DAY 1

They dropped their bags of at the place where they would stay for 5-days and dined out. Explored Mongkok, tried to eat street foods there.

MACAU DAY 2

They went to explore the overwhelmingly beautiful place of Macau. Hotel tour. Different shows like the Dragon show and such, everything was so amazing and undeniably pleasing to one’s eye especially to Luna who was having her first out of the country. They took a gondola ride at The Venetian Hotel.

HK DAY 3

It’s every child’s dream. Hello Disneyland! ;) a dreamy place. Rides here and there picture everywhere. It was like a fairy tale, a dream come true.

HK DAY 4

Ocean park time :)

Panda!!! The cable car ride that was so high you can already see the island that is beside it. Extreme rides awaits on the peak of the mountain.

At first Luna got scared to ride the Hair raiser, though she’s really a dare devil it’s just that it’s obviously her first time to ride a roller coaster abroad but Elvis held her hand and assured her that he has her back. They roamed around the place and rode every ride there is.

HK DAY 5

It’s a free day for everyone. Since there’s twelve of them they’ve all decided that they can go individually or wherever they want to for as long as they go straight to the airport before their scheduled flight. Elvis and Luna went to the Avenue of Stars that was beside the sea, it was a remarkable place. Then they headed out to the Hong Kong Museum of Art where there was an exhibit by Ju Ming who sculpted styros. It’s now time to go to the airport, good bye Hong Kong it has been a great 5-day stay.

The school year is about to start. Elvis and Luna had a major fight, this fight that would change everything that they have, the fight that would take everything away from them. Luna was being more possessive and jealous than ever.

Nasa car sila ni Elvis then sobrang nasa climax sila ng anger. Luna pulled out a blade from her wallet and slashed her left wrist three times, the blood was overflowing as both of them kept crying and crying an crying. Super nagalit sa Elvis so he punched his face until nagkaron ng pasa ang face niya. It was such a terrible night na ginulo ng sobra ang isip ni Elvis and that hurt Luna so much.

CHAPTER 5: WHAT HAPPENED

It was weeks before Elvis’ birthday. They tried to fix things between them though they’re both terribly in pain and totally hurt.

While Luna was sleeping beside Elvis…

Elvis: Mahal na mahal kita kahit ang sakit-sakit mo sa ulo (kisses Luna’s forehead)

It’s Elvis’ birthday and na-wrong send siya ng “Mine” kay Luna.

*Ano kaya itong “mine”? iba ang pakiramdam ko dito. Kasi hindi pwedeng typo because of the SMS topic. Ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko about this. I better ask him when he comes here.

Elvis denied the “Mine” issue but ever since that fight he is no longer sweet towards Luna and the feeling na lagi siyang irritated kay Luna and lagi siyang napipilitan whenever he’s with Luna and all. Luna loves him with all her heart ‘coz ever since he has this belief that every guy is a womanizer like her dad, and si Elvis Lang ang nag-iisa na hindi niya inisipan ng ganun. Luna did everything to save their relationship that was falling apart and that is being taken away from her, and the guy who loved him more than anyone else is now letting her go.

Luna secretly planned for Elvis’ birthday with Elvis’ classmates. Every post outside Elvis’ school from the North Gate to South Gate were his classmates, each of them holding a balloon and a letter from Luna. When Elvis reached the North Gate Luna was there holding a banner that says “Happy Birthday, I love you”. People can easily notice her because everyone’s uniform was white and she was wearing her school uniform which is black. Kinalimutan niya na babae siya at nilunok lahat ng pride at kakahiyan just to shout it out to the world how much she loves Elvis.

Galit pa rin ang family ni Elvis kay Luna because akala nila pinabugbog ni Luna si Elvis, and akala nila nabugbog si Elvis but Luna didn’t do anything.

They celebrated Luna’s birthday at Tagaytay. It was an okay day and Luna had dinner with her immediate family. The next day Luna went to Elvis’ house to apologize to Elvis’ family kasi alam niya na sobrang-sobra na nahihirapan si Elvis and it’s killing we everyday na nahihirapan si Elvis. She went inside the house crying and asking for forgiveness, she even knelt before the grandma and mother of Elvis with overflowing tears. The spoiled brat who doesn’t even know how to be sincere in saying ‘sorry’ now swallowed her pride just for the sake of this guy whom she loves more than herself. She was forgiven and things are now okay.

Only to find out when she went to Elvis’ room that he wasn’t there. She called up Elvis’ classmate but Elvis’ wasn’t in school, his bag and school stuffs were at his room. She waited and because Elvis’ tablet was there she checked it kasi sobrang iba na talaga pakiramdam niya about what is happening.

She found out that Elvis was talking to a girl name Kristine on Skype and that they talk for hours. It broke her heart because after that major fight Elvis didn’t even talked to her for even 3minutes on the phone.

*It felt like I was being burned alive, the fire under my feet while being showered with freezing ice cold water on my head at the same time. It breaks me a bit more than being terribly broken. This girl says ‘I love you’ to him and he keeps on talking to her. Ang sakit sobrang sakit.

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They talked about this girl and she let it pass because she understands why he is doing such to her, may it be pointless but she loves him that much to bear all the pain there is. She caught him numerous times with random evidences of him flirting with random girls, but still forgave him even though she’s already dying. Hours to days, days to weeks, weeks to month until someone unexpectedly messaged Luna on Facebook sending a link of a random girl whose profile picture was with Elvis, and when Luna checked the girl’s account it was confirmed that this girl is in a relationsip with Elvis just few months ago until now. This is a different girl, her name was Shell. Luna didn’t sleep, she stayed awake the whole midnight and rushed to Elvis’ house at around 5am. They talked, the Luna that once always shouted is now feeling so weak that whispered “Who is she?”. Sa sobrang mahal ni Luna si Elvis she told him na “Okay Lang kahit dalawa kami, kahit marami pa kami ‘wag ka Lang mawala sa akin.” Elvis kept on telling her to let go of him pero ayaw ni Luna. She loves Elvis so much, he was her everything when she had nothing and when she had everything as well. She’d give up everything for him even her life if she needs to, he was her Prince Charming, her dream come true, her happily everafter, her knight in shining armor, her love, her life, her strength, her weakness, her miracle, he was all that there is that she’ll ever want and need. Everyday she died just for him to live. How can this happen to a love that was so right? How can a love so strong just fall apart and break into pieces that no one can ever mend? Was this it? Were they meant to leave each other’s path this way? This pain, this hurt, this agony… hearts bleeding, tears flowing, what happened to a love that was meant to last? Could this be the final chapter of their love or the sequel would be in few years after or maybe in another lifetime?

Luna’s heart breaking, and she doesn’t know how can she heal now alone because she knows deep inside that they’re falling apart. She finally then agreed for a break up though she knows she’d be back from the start because everything she ever has emotionally, all the love she kept locked in the depth of her heart she freed it and gave it to Elvis. She was so fragile, she was generalizing that no man can ever be loyal and faithful but this guy unexpectedly came along and he was the only exception. But how can this  guy whom loved this girl so much break her heart terribly in the end? How can he have made her his life when in the end he would leave her lifeless and live his life alone?

This broken hearted girl then went to each one of the family members of Elvis, hugged them all and bid them farewell, even the dogs in the terrace she bid them farewell. She then looked in the sky, fell on her knees crying out loud asking God why did He let this happen to them, does she deserve to be hurt eversince? Does she deserve all the betrayal and loss of love? Elvis and Luna were both crying hysterically and the rest of the last time they saw each other was history. Elvis escorted her to the train station, and that was the last time that they looked deeply into each other’s eyes no words spoken but rather hearts broken.

Just after a week she saw a photo of Shell and Elvis at Elvis’ house, it broke her more than ever. The Luna that was strong her whole life now was losing grip of everything, the pain was already unbearable. She tried to get back on her feet and just let it go and continue living her life. But how? How can you continue living when every love was swept away? Another week had passed, she was terribly down but chose not to let anyone know and kept it all to herself. She knows what is right from wrong, she’s a practicing Catholic but all these were blocked out from her mind when she overdosed herself thinking and wishing that Elvis would visit her and she’d see him again, talk to him, and for him to ask for forgiveness.

She was vomiting blood and her bowel was blood, she was in the state of near death, she almost died but he never showed up not even heard anything from him. Luna was confined for a couple of days in the hospital until the laboratory results were clear then she could go home. During her stay she was reflecting and rewinding everything in her mind, back to the start when they met. She begged everyone who visited her in the hospital to make Elvis come but they refused to, because it won’t do any good instead it would just worsen things. Then for some days Luna came to realize that she had met Elvis for a certain reason that he would teach her a lesson, may it be such a hurtful way but at least she knows, Elvis knows and everyone else knows that she had loved him more than she though she could ever love someone that much. For her, she still believes in love and it’s majestic and mysterious ways because love wasn’t the one who hurt her but the person. This brave girl had fallen so badly, so bad that the ground could have buried her right then and there but she got up to be braver, stronger, and wiser. Never cease believing in love and in forever.

(JANUARY 2015)