Mga kwento ni Roger sa Pagong

NOTE: WRITTEN IN TAGLISH (TAGALOG + ENGLISH)

I went past this through  YouTube while searching for some  "Hugot Lines". I didn't expect this would hurt me so much. While listening to  his voice clips I couldn't help but cry, it's like it's my  conscience talking to me or me talking to myself.

#3 is so much  feels: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K89aL0cxe6w&feature=iv&src_vid=I2KOJP8oXfU&annotation_id=annotation_2184460895

Sinanay mo ako  hanggang sa ikaw ang nagsawa. Sinanay at  pinaniwala mo ako sa maraming bagay, naging tapat ka sa mga sinabi mo sa akin and you treated me like a princess but bakit you threw me out like trash? Pero like sa video hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan kung bakit biglang isang araw biglaan ka na lang nagbago. Bakit bigla mo na lang ako iniwan, bakit bigla ka na lang napagod, bakit bigla mo na lang ako pinagpalit? Sana bago ka umalis tinuruan mo man lang ako kung paano masanay na wala ka. Before you came I was scared to give all the love I have, when you came I gave you all the love there is even the love that I never knew I have but when you  left you took everything away from me. I can still remember how it all started but still wondering how it ended. Sobrang layo mo sa idea guy ko at compared to those who were before you, hindi ko alam how  and why I fell for you but I took the risk. Remember the time na nagka-misunderstanding kami ni Mommy? I ran away from home at hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw ang una kong naisip na takbuhan. I took a cab with not much cash in my pocket, sobrang dilim na nun at binaba ako sa along Carriedo then I was scared kasi hindi ako sanay sa place na yun so I asked the "kagawad" na nagroronda that time, naka-motor siya. And when I got to your doorstep I was surprised to find you there, it was already midnight. I didn't even have my  phone with me because mom confiscated it, funny how I found you  there on your doorstep and just hang up the phone with my mom. Hindi ko alam why she called you up. I asked you bakit ka nasa labas holding your car keys and you told me na sabi sayo ni mommy  that I ran away at kaya ka nasa labas because you would go and find me kahit hindi mo alam kung saan ako hahanapin. Pero after a year or two I ran away not from home but from  you because we had an argument but this time you didn't go after me, I asked you why at sinabi mo sakin kasi hindi mo alam kung saan ako hahanapin. Ang sakit how things changed. Katulad ka lang din pala nilang lahat.

This #6 hit me so much: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I2KOJP8oXfU 

Paano nga ba makalimot sa isang taong minahal mo ng lubusan? 'Yung taong minahal mo ng higit pa sa lahat. I tried to do everything that would distract me from thinking and remembering things about how  we used to be. I hated how I look when we were together; Timehop sucks! It brings back so much memories, moments I had with  you that are now just part of my past. Ang haggard ko, ang payat ko sobra, pero alam mo kung ano? I don't know how to bring that smile back, that smile I had when we were together, that smile I used to have because I know that I have you with me. Totoong hindi mahirap makalimot, ang mahirap ay ang tumanggap sa mga bagay  na wala na. It's been a year and few months since we said good-bye pero hanggang  ngayon masakit pa rin. Minsan hindi ko pa rin maiwasang masaktan, malungkot, magalit. Naniwala ako sa mga bagay na hindi ko pinaniniwalaan nung dumating ka, binigyan mo ako  ng pag-asa maniwala. Pero alam ko darating din ung time na magiging okay ako ulit, hindi man kita makakalimutan pero darating ung panahon na mapapatawad din kita sa lahat ng ginawa mo sa akin. Mapapatawad din kita at magiging masaya ako ulit.

(NOVEMBER 2015)