Mom has worked with Noringai in one of her TV appearances (I think sa Bagito). After her taping day she was telling me stories about her then another day came when she handed me over a book written by Noringai entitled "Parang Kayo Pero Hindi". So I started reading it, and realized na yung isang entry niya was posted na sa internet years ago. The thing about "pseudo-relationship". Nakaka-relate sobra, as I flip from one page to the other sapul ako. But unfortunately I wasn't able to finish the book since my friend borrowed it and hasn't given it back. Few more months and mom came home again now with two of Noringai's books entitled "Buti pa ang Roma may Papa" and "Goodbye Girl". Mom has the latter and reads it once in a while and I have the "Goodbye Girl", but haven't finished reading it yet because I skip stories but what hit me the most was the 5th chapter.
Tears were shed as I was reading it. That line that says "I will never find someone like you. Because I will find someone better than you." gave me chills since I've been contemplating more than a year now if I'll find someone like him. He was everything I hoped, prayed, and imagined and honestly I thought he was the one but I guess not. I couldn't agree more with Noringai because I know that I deserve someone who will not lie to me, will not betray me, will not make lame excuses, someone who will truly love me. Yes, I still find myself reminiscing and crying over what we used to have but I've accepted the fact that that's how far our story has reached and it's sad how it ended tragically. I may now have a heart that is shattered but now matter how broken my heart is, I know that I still have one. And knowing that for a fact, gives me hope for what may come.
(JANUARY 2016)
